First Days Of Holidays.

So I've been thinking alot over the past few days. Thinking about school, friends, family, relationships. I don't know why but they all seem so negative. All these aspects that once were the best parts of me, now are so depressing, in a way. I'm not sure if it's just because it was the end of what felt like the longest term in my life, or if it really is how things are going to be for the next 2 years or so. I'm really not looking forward to the last two years of highschool.

I went shopping with tenneal, charlzo and bree the other night and i realised that I'm not the same shape/size as I used to be. That was a massive eye opener. So I have made a plan for the holidays. I am going to go to the gym every second or so day. Knowing me, this plan will only last a week then I will get over it. I hate having no motivation to do anything with myself or my life. My mother is so right, although I hate to admit it.

I have been in a scary movie mood for the past few days. It's not a good thing. All up I think I've watched about 9 different horror movies. I didn't watch them alone, thankgod. I have watched:

-Skeleton Key

- White Noise

-Wrong Turn

-Panic Room

-Hostel

- Identity

-The last house on the left

- Rest Stop

-Dark Water

I thought I was all cool the first two nights of watching them because I didn't get any nightmares or anything. But last night after watching Rest Stop and The Last House on the left I couldn't get to sleep at all. I was so scared that I was shaking, which sucked. Everytime I closed my eyes and tried to thikn happy thoughts, I kept seeing this girl getting tortured. Rest Stop is by far the scariest movie I've seen in the past 3 days. Just letting you all know.

The Last House On The Left is kind of sad but really scary aswell. We had to watch a young girl get raped, that made me feel so bad for just watching it. Eventhough it was fake. They were both really unpredictable which was awesome : D Im glad I didn't watch them by myself though. We were going to watch saw 5 but one of the guys was 12 so we couldn't, damn him.

When the crew came over on thursday night, we had a water fight with the neighbours. Man, that would have been the first water fight I've had in soooo long. It felt so cool :) We won the water fight then got bored and jumped in the pool which was like ice and freezed my bum off.

Today, my family drove allll the way up to gympie to handover my little brother Alex, to the grandparents. At first I was pissed that we had to drive 3 hours to nowhere for no reason but then I realised that Alex won't be home for the next couple of days, so that made me happy.

I am soooooo tired. Haven't gone to bed before 2 in the last 4 days!! :O Need to catch up tonight. Handing in resumes tomorrow and hopefully getting a job, finally. Holidays are looking quiet swell for now.